Uncomfortable

Uncomfortable:

my birthday was this past saturday and my parents took me to breakfast (my FAVORITE!) and a movie. there was some time prior to the moving starting and we wandered around and walked into ann taylor loft. they got me a pair of pants and a skirt-totaling $10.81 (seriously amazing deal)
BUT...i was sooo uncomfortable being there. should i have let them buy me these things? should i have just sat at starbucks with the ice tea they got me (ahh..green tea ice tea sweetened...nothing like it!) and stayed put? i basically shopped!! that's illegal to this addict! it's like a porn addict going to a strip club or getting a playboy or something. what was i thinking? i felt guitly the whole time there.
but...a question a dear friend posed to me...is it shopping or staying within your means that is the issue? do i need to learn how to spend within my means? um...yes, yes i do. i want things. i want to get fabric to be creative and make clothes and pillows and things. i get an allowance...so how do i learn to stay within my means....
i still need to avoid clothing stores at the moment...but learning what i learned here was paramount. pausing myself and considering...not binging and purging...